Tuesday, May 24, 2005

HA! I'm so excited I can't even think of a good title for this post!

Midsummer and I are off to Colorado to visit Eucharisto, Tuesday's Child, Superman and rest of their dear family.

I'm very excited about this!

And I'm simply BURSTING with joy because after the festivities there (is a graduation a festivity?), we'll be returning WITH EUCHARISTO to go to my graduation here and who should be awaiting our return but QUEEN MUM, THE QUEEN OF ARTS AND ENGLAND, LUKOLAS and the rest of their dear family! This the kind of thing I love - the opportunity to mix my friends on the Great Turntable Of Life. Needless to say I'm looking forward to the next couple of weeks.


UPDATE: In other news, I just found out that I’ve been accepted to be a counselor at a summer-long Bible camp. Sooo... this might be my last blog post for a goodly long while - at least until the summer’s over. How’s that for sudden?

Friday, May 20, 2005

It Takes a Village...

I'd like to extend a great big THANK YOU to everyone who helped to get my accursed graduation invitations in the mail (it took about fifteen or twenty people at least; no kidding!); the invitations are done and almost ready to be mailed! Sure it took five or six more days than we thought it would but hey, we’re all grateful for the experience, right?


Thursday, May 19, 2005

I'm off to see Return of the Sith!

Or Revenge of the King or whatever. See I'm so excited that I can't think straight! Or something like that...


I wish I wasn't influenced by other people so much... I don't know whether to look forward this darn movie or not. I guess I'll know on the other side... (the dark side?)...

My, what a messy post!

Saturday, May 14, 2005


By G. K. Chesterton



THE suburb of Saffron Park lay on the sunset side of London, as red and
ragged as a cloud of sunset. It was built of a bright brick throughout;
its sky-line was fantastic, and even its ground plan was wild.
It had been the outburst of a speculative builder, faintly tinged with art,
who called its architecture sometimes Elizabethan and sometimes Queen Anne,
apparently under the impression that the two sovereigns were identical.
It was described with some justice as an artistic colony,
though it never in any definable way produced any art. But although
its pretensions to be an intellectual centre were a little vague,
its pretensions to be a pleasant place were quite indisputable.
The stranger who looked for the first time at the quaint red houses
could only think how very oddly shaped the people must be who could
fit in to them. Nor when he met the people was he disappointed
in this respect. The place was not only pleasant, but perfect,
if once he could regard it not as a deception but rather as a dream.
Even if the people were not "artists," the whole was nevertheless artistic.
That young man with the long, auburn hair and the impudent face--
that young man was not really a poet; but surely he was a poem.
That old gentleman with the wild, white beard and the wild,
white hat--that venerable humbug was not really a philosopher;
but at least he was the cause of philosophy in others.
That scientific gentleman with the bald, egg-like head and the bare,
bird-like neck had no real right to the airs of science that he assumed.
He had not discovered anything new in biology; but what biological
creature could he have discovered more singular than himself?
Thus, and thus only, the whole place had properly to be regarded;
it had to be considered not so much as a workshop for artists,
but as a frail but finished work of art. A man who stepped into its
social atmosphere felt as if he had stepped into a written comedy.

More especially this attractive unreality fell upon it about nightfall,
when the extravagant roofs were dark against the afterglow and
the whole insane village seemed as separate as a drifting cloud.
This again was more strongly true of the many nights of local festivity,
when the little gardens were often illuminated, and the big Chinese lanterns
glowed in the dwarfish trees like some fierce and monstrous fruit.
And this was strongest of all on one particular evening, still vaguely
remembered in the locality, of which the auburn-haired poet was the hero.
It was not by any means the only evening of which he was the hero.
On many nights those passing by his little back garden might hear his high,
didactic voice laying down the law to men and particularly to women.
The attitude of women in such cases was indeed one of the paradoxes of
the place. Most of the women were of the kind vaguely called emancipated,
and professed some protest against male supremacy. Yet these new women
would always pay to a man the extravagant compliment which no ordinary
woman ever pays to him, that of listening while he is talking.
And Mr. Lucian Gregory, the red-haired poet, was really (in some sense)
a man worth listening to, even if one only laughed at the end of it.
He put the old cant of the lawlessness of art and the art of lawlessness
with a certain impudent freshness which gave at least a momentary pleasure.
He was helped in some degree by the arresting oddity of his appearance,
which he worked, as the phrase goes, for all it was worth.
His dark red hair parted in the middle was literally like a woman's,
and curved into the slow curls of a virgin in a pre-Raphaelite picture.
From within this almost saintly oval, however, his face projected suddenly
broad and brutal, the chin carried forward with a look of cockney contempt.
This combination at once tickled and terrified the nerves of a
neurotic population. He seemed like a walking blasphemy, a blend
of the angel and the ape.

This particular evening, if it is remembered for nothing else,
will be remembered in that place for its strange sunset.
It looked like the end of the world. All the heaven seemed covered
with a quite vivid and palpable plumage; you could only say that the sky
was full of feathers, and of feathers that almost brushed the face.
Across the great part of the dome they were grey, with the strangest tints
of violet and mauve and an unnatural pink or pale green; but towards
the west the whole grew past description, transparent and passionate,
and the last red-hot plumes of it covered up the sun like something too
good to be seen. The whole was so close about the earth, as to express
nothing but a violent secrecy. The very empyrean seemed to be a secret.
It expressed that splendid smallness which is the soul of local patriotism.
The very sky seemed small.

I say that there are some inhabitants who may remember the evening if only by
that oppressive sky. There are others who may remember it because it marked
the first appearance in the place of the second poet of Saffron Park. For a
long time the red-haired revolutionary had reigned without a rival;
it was upon the night of the sunset that his solitude suddenly ended.
The new poet, who introduced himself by the name of Gabriel Syme was a very
mild-looking mortal, with a fair, pointed beard and faint, yellow hair.
But an impression grew that he was less meek than he looked.
He signalised his entrance by differing with the established poet,
Gregory, upon the whole nature of poetry. He said that he (Syme) was poet
of law, a poet of order; nay, he said he was a poet of respectability.
So all the Saffron Parkers looked at him as if he had that moment fallen
out of that impossible sky.

In fact, Mr. Lucian Gregory, the anarchic poet, connected the two events.

"It may well be," he said, in his sudden lyrical manner, "it may
well be on such a night of clouds and cruel colours that there is
brought forth upon the earth such a portent as a respectable poet.
You say you are a poet of law; I say you are a contradiction in terms.
I only wonder there were not comets and earthquakes on the night you
appeared in this garden."

The man with the meek blue eyes and the pale, pointed beard
endured these thunders with a certain submissive solemnity.
The third party of the group, Gregory's sister Rosamond,
who had her brother's braids of red hair, but a kindlier face
underneath them, laughed with such mixture of admiration
and disapproval as she gave commonly to the family oracle.

Gregory resumed in high oratorical good humour.

"An artist is identical with an anarchist," he cried.
"You might transpose the words anywhere. An anarchist is an artist.
The man who throws a bomb is an artist, because he prefers
a great moment to everything. He sees how much more valuable
is one burst of blazing light, one peal of perfect thunder,
than the mere common bodies of a few shapeless policemen.
An artist disregards all governments, abolishes all conventions.
The poet delights in disorder only. If it were not so, the most
poetical thing in the world would be the Underground Railway."

"So it is," said Mr. Syme.

"Nonsense! " said Gregory, who was very rational when anyone
else attempted paradox. "Why do all the clerks and navvies in
the railway trains look so sad and tired, so very sad and tired?
I will tell you. It is because they know that the train is going right.
It is because they know that whatever place they have taken a ticket
for that place they will reach. It is because after they have passed
Sloane Square they know that the next station must be Victoria,
and nothing but Victoria. Oh, their wild rapture! oh, their eyes
like stars and their souls again in Eden, if the next station
were unaccountably Baker Street!"

"It is you who are unpoetical," replied the poet Syme. "If what you
say of clerks is true, they can only be as prosaic as your poetry.
The rare, strange thing is to hit the mark; the gross,
obvious thing is to miss it. We feel it is epical when man
with one wild arrow strikes a distant bird. Is it not also epical
when man with one wild engine strikes a distant station?
Chaos is dull; because in chaos the train might indeed go anywhere,
to Baker Street or to Bagdad. But man is a magician,
and his whole magic is in this, that he does say Victoria,
and lo! it is Victoria. No, take your books of mere poetry
and prose; let me read a time table, with tears of pride.
Take your Byron, who commemorates the defeats of man;
give me Bradshaw, who commemorates his victories.
Give me Bradshaw, I say!"

"Must you go?" inquired Gregory sarcastically.

"I tell you," went on Syme with passion, "that every time
a train comes in I feel that it has broken past batteries
of besiegers, and that man has won a battle against chaos.
You say contemptuously that when one has left Sloane Square
one must come to Victoria. I say that one might do a thousand
things instead, and that whenever I really come there I have
the sense of hairbreadth escape. And when I hear the guard
shout out the word 'Victoria,' it is not an unmeaning word.
It is to me the cry of a herald announcing conquest.
It is to me indeed 'Victoria'; it is the victory of Adam."

Gregory wagged his heavy, red head with a slow and sad smile.

"And even then," he said, "we poets always ask the question,
'And what is Victoria now that you have got there ?'
You think Victoria is like the New Jerusalem. We know that
the New Jerusalem will only be like Victoria. Yes, the poet
will be discontented even in the streets of heaven.
The poet is always in revolt."

"There again," said Syme irritably, "what is there poetical
about being in revolt ? You might as well say that it is poetical
to be sea-sick. Being sick is a revolt. Both being sick and being
rebellious may be the wholesome thing on certain desperate occasions;
but I'm hanged if I can see why they are poetical.
Revolt in the abstract is--revolting. It's mere vomiting."

The girl winced for a flash at the unpleasant word, but Syme
was too hot to heed her.

"It is things going right," he cried, "that is poetical
I Our digestions, for instance, going sacredly and silently right,
that is the foundation of all poetry. Yes, the most poetical thing,
more poetical than the flowers, more poetical than the stars--
the most poetical thing in the world is not being sick."

"Really," said Gregory superciliously, "the examples you choose--"

"I beg your pardon," said Syme grimly, "I forgot we had
abolished all conventions."

For the first time a red patch appeared on Gregory's forehead.

"You don't expect me," he said, "to revolutionise society on this lawn ?"

Syme looked straight into his eyes and smiled sweetly.

"No, I don't," he said; "but I suppose that if you were serious
about your anarchism, that is exactly what you would do."

Gregory's big bull's eyes blinked suddenly like those of an angry lion,
and one could almost fancy that his red mane rose.

"Don't you think, then," he said in a dangerous voice, "that I am
serious about my anarchism?"

"I beg your pardon ?" said Syme.

"Am I not serious about my anarchism ?" cried Gregory, with knotted fists.

"My dear fellow!" said Syme, and strolled away.

With surprise, but with a curious pleasure, he found Rosamond Gregory
still in his company.

"Mr. Syme," she said, "do the people who talk like you and my brother
often mean what they say ? Do you mean what you say now ?"

Syme smiled.

"Do you ?" he asked.

"What do you mean ?" asked the girl, with grave eyes.

"My dear Miss Gregory," said Syme gently, "there are many kinds
of sincerity and insincerity. When you say 'thank you' for the salt,
do you mean what you say ? No. When you say 'the world is round,'
do you mean what you say ? No. It is true, but you don't mean it.
Now, sometimes a man like your brother really finds a thing he does mean.
It may be only a half-truth, quarter-truth, tenth-truth; but then
he says more than he means--from sheer force of meaning it."

She was looking at him from under level brows; her face was grave
and open, and there had fallen upon it the shadow of that unreasoning
responsibility which is at the bottom of the most frivolous woman,
the maternal watch which is as old as the world.

"Is he really an anarchist, then?" she asked.

"Only in that sense I speak of," replied Syme; "or if you prefer it,
in that nonsense."

She drew her broad brows together and said abruptly--

"He wouldn't really use--bombs or that sort of thing?"

Syme broke into a great laugh, that seemed too large for his slight
and somewhat dandified figure.

"Good Lord, no!" he said, "that has to be done anonymously."

And at that the corners of her own mouth broke into a smile,
and she thought with a simultaneous pleasure of Gregory's
absurdity and of his safety.

Syme strolled with her to a seat in the corner of the garden,
and continued to pour out his opinions. For he was a
sincere man, and in spite of his superficial airs and graces,
at root a humble one. And it is always the humble man who
talks too much; the proud man watches himself too closely.
He defended respectability with violence and exaggeration.
He grew passionate in his praise of tidiness and propriety.
All the time there was a smell of lilac all round him.
Once he heard very faintly in some distant street a barrel-organ
begin to play, and it seemed to him that his heroic words
were moving to a tiny tune from under or beyond the world.

He stared and talked at the girl's red hair and amused face
for what seemed to be a few minutes; and then, feeling that
the groups in such a place should mix, rose to his feet.
To his astonishment, he discovered the whole garden empty.
Everyone had gone long ago, and he went himself with a
rather hurried apology. He left with a sense of champagne
in his head, which he could not afterwards explain.
In the wild events which were to follow this girl had no part
at all; he never saw her again until all his tale was over.
And yet, in some indescribable way, she kept recurring like
a motive in music through all his mad adventures afterwards,
and the glory of her strange hair ran like a red thread
through those dark and ill-drawn tapestries of the night.
For what followed was so improbable, that it might well have
been a dream.

When Syme went out into the starlit street, he found it
for the moment empty. Then he realised (in some odd way)
that the silence was rather a living silence than a dead one.
Directly outside the door stood a street lamp, whose gleam gilded
the leaves of the tree that bent out over the fence behind him.
About a foot from the lamp-post stood a figure almost as rigid
and motionless as the lamp-post itself. The tall hat and long
frock coat were black; the face, in an abrupt shadow, was almost
as dark. Only a fringe of fiery hair against the light,
and also something aggressive in the attitude, proclaimed that it
was the poet Gregory. He had something of the look of a masked
bravo waiting sword in hand for his foe.

He made a sort of doubtful salute, which Syme somewhat more formally returned.

"I was waiting for you," said Gregory. "Might I have
a moment's conversation?"

"Certainly. About what?" asked Syme in a sort of weak wonder.

Gregory struck out with his stick at the lamp-post, and then at the tree.
"About this and this," he cried; "about order and anarchy.
There is your precious order, that lean, iron lamp, ugly and barren;
and there is anarchy, rich, living, reproducing itself--there is anarchy,
splendid in green and gold."

"All the same," replied Syme patiently, "just at present
you only see the tree by the light of the lamp. I wonder
when you would ever see the lamp by the light of the tree."
Then after a pause he said, "But may I ask if you have been
standing out here in the dark only to resume our little argument?"

"No," cried out Gregory, in a voice that rang down the street,
"I did not stand here to resume our argument, but to end
it for ever."

The silence fell again, and Syme, though he understood nothing,
listened instinctively for something serious. Gregory began
in a smooth voice and with a rather bewildering smile.

"Mr. Syme," he said, "this evening you succeeded in doing something
rather remarkable. You did something to me that no man born of woman
has ever succeeded in doing before."


"Now I remember," resumed Gregory reflectively, "one other person succeeded
in doing it. The captain of a penny steamer (if I remember correctly)
at Southend. You have irritated me."

"I am very sorry," replied Syme with gravity.

"I am afraid my fury and your insult are too shocking to be wiped out even
with an apology," said Gregory very calmly. "No duel could wipe it out.
If I struck you dead I could not wipe it out. There is only one
way by which that insult can be erased, and that way I choose.
I am going, at the possible sacrifice of my life and honour, to prove
to you that you were wrong in what you said."

"In what I said?"

"You said I was not serious about being an anarchist."

"There are degrees of seriousness," replied Syme. "I have
never doubted that you were perfectly sincere in this sense,
that you thought what you said well worth saying, that you
thought a paradox might wake men up to a neglected truth."

Gregory stared at him steadily and painfully.

"And in no other sense," he asked, "you think me serious?
You think me a flaneur who lets fall occasional truths.
You do not think that in a deeper, a more deadly sense,
I am serious."

Syme struck his stick violently on the stones of the road.

"Serious! " he cried. "Good Lord! is this street serious?
Are these damned Chinese lanterns serious? Is the whole caboodle serious?
One comes here and talks a pack of bosh, and perhaps some sense as well,
but I should think very little of a man who didn't keep something in
the background of his life that was more serious than all this talking--
something more serious, whether it was religion or only drink."

"Very well," said Gregory, his face darkening, "you shall see
something more serious than either drink or religion."

Syme stood waiting with his usual air of mildness until Gregory
again opened his lips.

"You spoke just now of having a religion. Is it really true
that you have one?"

"Oh," said Syme with a beaming smile, "we are all Catholics now."

"Then may I ask you to swear by whatever gods or saints your religion
involves that you will not reveal what I am now going to tell you to any
son of Adam, and especially not to the police? Will you swear that!
If you will take upon yourself this awful abnegations if you will consent
to burden your soul with a vow that you should never make and a knowledge
you should never dream about, I will promise you in return--"

"You will promise me in return?" inquired Syme, as the other paused.

"I will promise you a very entertaining evening."
Syme suddenly took off his hat.

"Your offer," he said, "is far too idiotic to be declined.
You say that a poet is always an anarchist. I disagree;
but I hope at least that he is always a sportsman.
Permit me, here and now, to swear as a Christian, and promise
as a good comrade and a fellow-artist, that I will not
report anything of this, whatever it is, to the police.
And now, in the name of Colney Hatch, what is it?"

"I think," said Gregory, with placid irrelevancy, "that we will call a cab."

He gave two long whistles, and a hansom came rattling down the road.
The two got into it in silence. Gregory gave through the trap the
address of an obscure public-house on the Chiswick bank of the river.
The cab whisked itself away again, and in it these two fantastics
quitted their fantastic town.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

North Country Music

If I had a music store it would be called North Country Music and it would carry these albums (this list is in some sort of rough order):

The Joshua Tree, U2
Sixpence None The Richer, Sixpence None The Richer
The Turning, Leslie Phillips
Mr. Buechner’s Dream, Daniel Amos
A Boot and a Shoe, Sam Phillips
How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb, U2
Slow Train Coming, Bob Dylan
O Brother Where Art Thou?, T Bone Burnett
Cold Mountain, T Bone Burnett
Only Visiting This Planet, Larry Norman
American IV: The Man Comes Around, Johnny Cash
All That You Can’t Leave Behind, U2
Rattle And Hum, U2
The Beautiful Letdown, Switchfoot
Free At Last, dc Talk
The Eleventh Hour, Jars of Clay
Who We Are Instead, Jars of Clay
Jesus Freak, dc Talk
Songs From Bright Avenue, Bob Bennett
Horrendous Disc, Daniel Amos
Me Died Blue, Steven Delopoulos
If I Left the Zoo, Jars of Clay
Stereotype Be, Kevin Max
Flap Your Wings, The Choir
Divine Discontent, Sixpence None The Richer
Van Lear Rose, Loretta Lynn
A Rush of Blood to the Head, Coldplay
The Jesus Demos, Rich Mullins
A Liturgy, A Legacy & A Ragamuffin Band, Rich Mullins
Jars of Clay, Jars of Clay
New Way to Be Human, Switchfoot
My Mother’s Hymn Book, Johnny Cash
Love and Theft, Bob Dylan
Orange Blossom Special, Johnny Cash
Between the Fence and the Universe, Kevin Max
Thrive, The Newsboys
Supernatural, dc Talk
October, U2
War, U2
Much Afraid, Jars of Clay
John Wesley Harding, Bob Dylan
Roaring Lambs, Dave Palmer
Gift Horse, Lost Dogs
So You Wanna Go Back To Egypt?, Keith Green
Lonely Runs Both Ways, Alison Krauss and Union Station
Big Blue Sky, Bebo Norman
A Fragile Stone, Michael Card
Deep Enough to Dream, Chris Rice
Stacie Orrico, Stacie Orrico
It’s Personal, Phil Keaggy
Find Me In The Fields, Phil Keaggy
Signs of Life, Steven Curtis Chapman
Speechless Steven Curtis Chapman
Nothing Left to Prove, Danny Orteli

===========Best Of and Tribute Albums=============

The Strong Hand Of Love
Beatles 1
The Best of Peter, Paul and Mary: Ten Years Together
High Noon
Have We Got A Show For You
Intermission: the Greatest Hits
Shine, the Hits
20 Essential Tracks From The Boxed Set: 1965-1990

Friday, May 06, 2005

Note To Self:

Note to self,

Reply to those emails in the inbox, some of them have been sitting there for a while!

Talk about Eucharisto's demo songs that he sent, they sound great!

Relate 'The Story of the Weeping Computer'

Explain what'll be keeping you busy this week

Remember to tell your readers about the brake you took this week and why you haven't resently posted or responded to their comments.

Now that your brake is over respond to those comments and post something, anything, on 'Foolish Knight'!